After over 200 days of getting my probation down, to 1 X per mnth.

* I came to one conclusion

/and think about that time in a sort of ff, ( time sequeces hovering time) stationary if you will.

#1. If the Drs. asked me the benefits of smoking mauijuana?

( and this took allot of thought )

It can help an amituer guitar player tune a guitar.. That would be my answer.

Why do I think of these things? And the neccessary (sp.ck)

Piece/out/Rb

i don't know why you think up things you do, but i do like your answer. it would be great if one benefit of smoking pot was helping rid or serious back problems.
peace out & rock on, freaky

Aye Freaky> Yeah, smoking weed, can be a catylist to other drugs. BUT, as far it in it'self, be a cure all, for chronic back bain, that's like putting a hand gran-aide on a mosquito bite. YIKES!!!

First, the paranoid thought, of just re-acknoledging, #1. you do have a serious problem, and the thought of it, compounds the actual ailment. And the thought if it, hurts. ( It never hurts unltill I laugh)(Smile) (Cry)

I'm waiting on Monday, to fill some shedule #2 drugs. Whey they won't fill them 2 days early, is sorta my fault. I just wish I lived in England, where stupid drugs like such should be OTC medications here in the states...

Don't need oxys, don't need ViCodan... But a few Perks will take away a rainy day. I've learned how to deal with the pain. And drugs kick ass.... ( I wish I wasn't allergic to Morphine) BUT, It just might be a Godsend. I'm also allergic to Methadone. So I have a phobia of taking those drugs. Or a phobia of taking any new drug. These side effects scare me. I got along fine for the most part, on Benzodiapines, and wouldn't recommend being reliant on Oxycodone. But there are days...... I go to Flether Alan in Burlington in 2 days, and no-matter what the MRI's and EEG's and whatever it is, they are diagnoising..... ( Neurosurgeons---- I should of went to bloody med school, I could tell myslef.... Biology wasn't my forte.. I coulda handled the math. Keeping your mind busy, has very much to do with eliminating chronic anything) I won't have surgery...

Wierd.... I sorta closed the book. I wonder why, I am so open. I guess it's just because. If I ever see anyone in person, I like to know them. In a traditional sence. In the theory, 'not everyone will like you'... I enjoy that now..... Most eveyone, seems to be kewl. But if you have people, that don't like you. Well sometimes, even if they don't like you. You gain they're repsect... I guess if there's anything, I would want other than relationships, is respect. If people don't know you for who you are, is there really any respect. Or understanding. Most folks for the most part, are fortunate enough, to walse around, without trying to figure shit out.

& I'm happy for them. A chemical imbalance, can have a person thinking too hard, about meaningless shit. As much as I wanna be here, I don't really think about tommorro too much. I have a high influence, someone, up there, is not thru with my ass yet. I hate to quote Bob Dylan... And that shouldn't be! Bob Dylan, was the poet of a century. Of 3 centurys... Why would I not want to quote Bob Dylan...???? ( Well, I had a friend here in the City.... Rob Martin Jr..... Passed on here about a mnth. ago... USED TO ALWAYS quote Bobby Dylan in "Letters to the Editor" in the local rag....... I always made fun, of Rob Martin, yes even in public.... For quoting Bob Dylan all the time.... I'd say, "Rob why you quotin Bob Dylan, if you got so much good to say, why don't you just make up your own quotes..... Rob Martin Jr.?".... Rob respected me, and would always, spin a interesting conversation, in politics..... We had allot in common me and Rob Martin..... I never realized, how much he remembered me till he passed here awhile back. People could tell we were friends, altho, we always had that differential, arguementitive side, I guess people like that... ( And he always played my Alro CD's in his bar at Happy Hr... So we gotta long, just fine) We even had a long tit for tat, in the " the letters to irv, in the local rag, about Alices' and how he thought it all just a pipe dream.... "quoting " guts, & veins in my teeth".... It went on.... Rob was a much better letter writer than me..... Even if he had to quote Dylan, all the time.... The city will miss Rob Matins, " letters to the editor "..

I quit writing letters to the local rag.... I never opened a chapter of my life, in my real world. It's far to small an envirionment.... Let people speculate..... I'm either a Thomas Einstein, and a philantropist helping old ladys across the st.... Or the closet drug addict, ( the dry alcoholic ) that eveyone missjuges... I'm not opting for surgery.....

Yeah, to quote Bob Dylan " You gotta serve somebody "

If any of this made any sence.... get a life

Rob

Agnes, I miss your post. I always enjoyed reading between the lines. I miss Dr. Dee. I should send her some mail...

A to do list. That's what I need........

well rb, to clear the air abit, i haven't smoked pot in over 10 yrs. and never did the hard core/psycadelics but looking like a throwback to the '70s (long hair, sideburns, colored classes, driving old bug) people always seem to assume i am into that stuff. it bothers me still that people still tend to judge a book by it's cover, which is why i get such shitty treatment by the doctors i see or getting crappy or no service in stores/restuaunts. but i choose to be who i am and wear my turtle wax. i may be a little overly attentive but don't believe i'm paranoid. i know that i have a serious medical problem and have ait ofa sensitivity/allergy problem w/most meds myself. i'm one who is quiet and keeps to myself also and going tru my own trial by fire, which is why only a few people from the boards knows what's going on.
think it's time to let it out now. i am in need of surgery to fix my spine which is slipping forward at the L5-S1 disks in turn fracturing/crushing the L3,4,5 disks. so they will need to push spine back into place and fuse/graft 4 disks together. recently was giving a forced med leave from my boss as evening chef for 5 years. so, yah, depression is also major issue at this time. no, this no sob story, i didn't want to give any more worries to you good people. enough for now, it's getting to be a bit much for me right now.
peace, Joe (freaky)

Hey Joe: I can sympathize with that. whole heartedly.... Putting off back surgery isn't something that comes off lightly... I'll know more about myslef on the 24th... Dr. Morris is the man. So they tell me...

I wish you all the luck.... visa-versa....


No Pschedelics are nuthin to brag about. I know friends who have oatmeal for brains. I call them vegitarians. They are great people, but the expression "wow man" only gains so much clout, after hearing it for the umptennth time...

Good Luck!!!

Rb